It's day 4 today. Still a long way to full recovery. It's challenging to walk, sit up, lay on bed without assistance! I cried alot feeling so retarded and handicap. I know I shouldn't think that way coz Allah Taala kasi kita sakit for a reason. Mungkin sebab eratkan silaturahim keluarga dengan saling tolong menolong. Tak kira for hubby to wife, or mum in law (MIL) to menantu, or MIL to grandchild. Actually it made me so mad and jealous (maybe it's the postnatal blues) to see my MIL able to do so much for MY CHILD! It's mine what why so many rules and restrictions! And I feel so helpless because I really am physically not able to take care of BabyQ. Hubby always assuring me and motivating me for a speedy recovery. But I can't help mulut masin and pikiran so negative that I think I say awfull things to hubby about MIL. Honestly that's not my type of person. I just wan to go home laa! Why can't I juz recuperate at the comfort of my own home? This 44 pantang days is too long! And I'm soo bored. Help.
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